I believe I appropriately titled this blog because my mind has been on overload lately. I stared at this blank page wondering where I should start... Where should I begin after not blogging for several years?
So here I sit (at the coffee shop where I work) just wracking my brain on what to write.
Here goes nothing.
As of October 23rd, I have lived in Aggieland for 2 months. It's so hard to believe. If someone had come up to me eight months ago and told me that I would be moving to Texas, I would've laughed in their face. I didn't know what I had planned, but it wasn't 100° weather. (Sorry, that wasn't too clever.) I have a nasty habit of taking 1,677,736,346,678 years to make any type of decision. (You should see me order at a coffee shop.) Even though I didn't have this crazy elaborate plan, I still knew what I DIDN'T want. Anyways.. Rant over. The point is I had my own plan, as much of a plan I could have and God made it abundantly clear that HE had other things in mind.
Looking back now I realize that I was incredibly arrogant to believe that my plan was better. I fought God's plan then and I've fought it many other times as well. But now, in my current stage of life I can honestly say that I know God's plan is best. That sounds so incredibly corny, but I believe it with my whole heart. I don't even know why I try to make plans on my own because God is my Father and He knows what is best for me. In no way am I saying that it's EASY to "let go, and let God" but it is so incredibly freeing. One of favorite verses is Psalm 46:10. “Be still, and know that I am God! I will be honored by every nation. I will be honored throughout the world.” (NLT) The first two words are my favorite. Be. Still.
I imagine God saying that to me when I scared of the unknown in my life; scared of letting go. I'm freaking out and God just locks me in a hug and says: "Be still. I am God." That is just a crazy comfort for me. The (one and only) God of the universe CARES for me.
He states over and over in the Bible about how much He cares for us. So why is it this hard for me to let go and let Him have His way in my life?
I know He has great plans for me.
